Elite Nationals wekend!

I think I e-mailed rish on a Tuesday telling him I may go to Chicago with him. Caylin was sick and Becky may need to stay home with her. Friday came along and Caylin seemed back to her self in no time at all. Becky had a little bit of a cold and I was feeling run down a bit. We all made it out there Sat. night. Becky's Mom and Grandma went as well. Saturday's race was at 4:30 so we enjoyed staying in bed till 7:00 am. Caylin got up early as she always does on the weekends away from home.

Today I woke up in horrible shape! Bathroom all day! no joke it was not pretty. Biggest race of the year and I felt bad real bad. I didn't want to share it with my teammates so I tried to keep quiet about it. Lord has other things for me to do until another day. In sat race Jim lead me out for a 50 dollar prime and some guy came around us before the last turn. I tried to get him but couldn't. I blew up after that and couldn't do anything in the race. My legs didn't recover at all after a short effort.

So Shawn asked me if I wanted to move up I said no... then Yes.... then noooo... but it was to late Shawn took off so I jumped on his wheel and he passed half the field fast but by the time we did that I couldn't go anymore so I told Shawn I can't go anymore. I felt horrible I couldn't do anything, nothing hard at all. I was mad!

Sunday I went to the bathroom once today and felt ok. Got ready for the big race and everything was going good this morning. Race started and I had 4 bottles with E-Load and 2 bananas ready for the race. While we were in the race I heard someone mention how is he going to eat that banana? The other guy said I don't know. SO I took the banana and put it in my mouth went around the last corner of the race stood up and pealed the banana and stuffed half of it in my mouth. Later on I ate the other half and Marco asked me how I was doing? I told him ok, then started to choke on the banana. He said you ok I said no I am choking on the banana, as we laughed. I drank some E-Load and was doing good and said I am ok now.

Later on in the race I saw Marco move up. With about 17 to go I felt like I couldn't do anything. I would move up and then get passed cause I couldn't recover at all. I kept trying all the 2nd half to mave up but nothing was working. 8 laps to go and I moved to the top 20 and then nothing. I was done. I thought I had a chance and it was all taken away in less than a lap. I had nothing left in my body and finally got dropped with 4 to go. I saw Hekman, Harper and Marco on the front behind another team. I told Becky they had to make the move on the downhill as hard as they could. Hoping they would lead Marco out. Sometimes in races the pressure is so high and hard all you can do is just go with the flow. The race went good we did finish 3 riders in the top 15. But everyone at the race knows we had the best chance to win that one! Next year will be different and I hope that all will work out better which I am sure it will.

Thank you Lord for a very hard and dissappointing weekend. Things could have been alot worse and I thank you for all the exciting times out there and I pray that you will continue to change my life more each day. I pray that you heal all that were hurt this weekend. Thanks for keeping me safe and help me to recover from this sickness I have in time for this next weekend if it be your will.
Amen.